Tuesday, October 2, 2012

Power Struggle

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Abel is persistent and curious and busy, busy, busy.  It can be really trying for me, mainly at times when we are head to head on something.  I say “no” and he tests me, again and again and again.

I did not have a great day today.  I know my voice was not ideal at times when I responded to him.  I took so many deep breaths, counted to ten… to thirty if I had to.  I know he is still little and things don’t connect quite yet in the “don’t do it again” department.

But still, at one point I was brainstorming in my head about how to establish myself as alpha.  Did I need to pee on something?

No.  I needed to keep taking deep breaths.  I needed to love the hell out of him, even when he was driving me crazy.  And today that meant gathering him up to snuggle in Daddy’s chair and watch a movie, dancing and singing to “Under the Sea,” and sending the mumma-loves-you vibes through the crook in my arm.

I need to make some adjustments to our days and thankfully, they’re pretty simple.  But I also know they’ll be super effective – in keeping Abel nurtured and in keeping me (mostly) sane.

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