The Sun Shines Through

The sun shines through a partly cloudy sky, reducing the clouds to haze. This brisk morning is surely going to develop into a beautiful day.

But here I am at my desk, shivering because the A/C in this building is always working overtime. I’m only a half an hour into the work day and already I’m desperate for closing time… or at least lunch break.

Truth be told, I’m pretty beyond this job- not ungrateful for it, but "over it." I want to continue to work hard and serve the department well, but mostly I’m just ready to move on to what’s next: baby and being at home. When I’m busy, I don’t have as much time to think about it, but things have been kind of slow again, so I sit and think about the things I’d rather be doing. Like cleaning my house and nesting. Yes, seriously, I’d rather be cleaning than sitting here, freezing my butt off waiting for work.

So I struggle a bit sometimes, but most of the time I use the relative ease of my position and supervisors to find ways to keep busy at work, even when there is no actual work for me to do. I read books, search baby relevant topics on the Internet, read blogs, get inspired on Tumblr, and sometimes even write a bit, using this “free time” to hash out various thoughts and ideas and plans and hopes.

Basically, I’m trying to make the most of these boring work days, especially since it’s not like they’re particularly difficult. And even though they kind of suck in the I’d-rather-be-doing-other-things kind of way, I appreciate them, because I know darn well in a few months when my world gets rocked, I’m going to wish I hadn’t underestimated the value of slow and quiet.