Oh, anxiety.

I think the reason I've been feeling kinda cruddy the past few days stems from anxiety about tomorrow. I am getting my wisdom teeth taken out and this makes me anxious because it is considered surgery. I've never had surgery before. Which means I've never been injected with an IV before. This freaks me out. I think it's a lack of control thing. It makes me nervous that someone is going to poke me with a needle and then shove a tube into my arm... not to mention get "put under" so someone can dig around in my mouth and pull some teeth out. Ugh, I just don't like it!

So, I'll be spending the evening trying to relax, maybe meditate a bit on the way an IV might feel and ways to keep myself from vomiting all over the dental surgeon. I know I'll be fine, but it's the getting to the point where I'm fine that is hard. I mean, after the surgery is over, I'll probably forget I even had to go through the IV part... I'll be doped up and thinkin' life is grand. Or so they tell me.

All this means I probably wont be posting tomorrow. I mean, I'll be drugged and probably sleep the afternoon away after the surgery. And although I would probably prefer to be a bum and juice it for all it's worth, I'm going to try to keep a positive attitude in the hopes I'll heal faster and feel better more quickly... like, by Friday. Ha! We'll see how that goes!