Goodbye Redundancy.

I should be in bed by now, reading to relax before falling off to sleep.  But I’m up journaling.  Taking time to release a bit of what’s in my crazy brain.

Today I found the following quote, and in my every day journal I’m writing about it, finally finding the words to post about this week.

“It is necessary to write, if the days are not to slip emptily by.  How else, indeed, to clap the net over the butterfly of the moment?  For the moment passes, it is forgotten; the mood is gone; life itself is gone.  That is where the writer scores over his fellows: he catches the changes of his mind on the hop.  Growth is exciting; growth is dynamic and alarming.  Growth of the soul, growth of the mind.” ~Vita Sackville-West~

This quote inspires me so much.  Not just to write, but to live worth writing about.  No, not as a character in a made up novel, but honestly and authentically.  Both here and in my journals, though, I express that I feel redundant most of the time.  I keep hoping something will change so that I can move forward instead of around in circles.

I know, of course, that the thing that needs to change is me, but it’s not so easy to do as it is to say.  I suppose that’s what makes it so worth it.  It’s not easy, I have to work for it, and when I get there, it’s beautiful, it’s transformation, it’s butterflies.

I’m certainly going to keep all that in mind as I push through, push forward through obstacles, and make changes when I feel like the starting line is coming back into view again instead of the next leg of the race.

But first, I’m going to get my granny self to bed, because it’s time for me to be sleeping, and there are pages to be read first.